ughhh .. i've been so Lazy these days . it's Like i just want to be stuck at home with this computer aLL day for the rest of my Life ! i'm crazy ! i've been committing too many absences from schooL ! i'm gonna be dead when mom and dad finds out i'm not doing weLL there .
schooL was never fun . it's sick .. or maybe i'm the one sick .. maybe ? no , exactLy i am sick ! i thought i was ambitious enough to pursue on my studies . now, i'm nothing but a useLess freak ! but just why i'm not Loving schooL now ? do i Love what i do there ? heLL no ! and it's aLL my fauLt ! i shouLd've thought better before i took my course .. thesis , reports ! buLLshit ! what's fun with that ?! and i'm writing it aLL down here coz i can't share it directLy to any other's face coz i don't expect anyone to understand . even i myseLf don't understand !
i keep teLLing myseLf to just go on , time wiLL pass . patience . and i'LL be soon getting over it . ughhh , my mind's gonna expLode ! i've been having sLeepLess nights thinking of these ! i've been counting days , but stiLL it's too Long . i'm dying !
but i know i'LL do weLL onLy if i Love what i'm doing .. shouLd i teLL my parents i'm shifting from my course ? nah'ah .. they'LL kiLL me . they've spent too much aLready . i am hopeLess .
and now i have to go . a cLassmate caLLed , for the thesis again .. oh anyone there , kiLL me !!!!
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