I'm feeling different. And it's getting worse each day. Maybe I feel sad. I know why, but I'm not sure of it. I'm feeling lonely. Am I really loosing people around me? I'm not feeling anyone beside me. Maybe I'm really pushing them away.
It's semester break in two days, I'm excited. I'm planning to have all the fun I could. But holding back, yes I'm having fun, but with whom? I remember, I don't have friends. Maybe I do have some. That's what I thought before. But aghhh, they're hurting me. Are friends really meant to make you feel bad? I know I'm not perfect. I'm stupid most of the time so who am I to say, but I can't help complaining. What they're doing isn't the idea of friendship that I had in mind. Or am I just being self-centered?
I have issues in life that I can't fight. I'm afraid of people. Yes. Oh, not literally but I'm afraid of letting people come in to my life in a way that... ughhhh, I don't know either. But the "rejection" thing is alway a reason to be afraid of. I know I'm not a friendly person. It's so clear. And you cannot blame me if you ask why.
I have stories in life that I can't easily let go. Most of them are sad stories. It's how people pushed me away. It's how people hate me. I grew up in a place where most of everyone doesn't know the word "respect". They don't appreciate and accept the way I am and the things I do. I didn't do anything wrong to them for sure. So I'm clueless why they are like that. Maybe it's in the way I look. My physical appearance have always been an issue to others. So is that the reason? Nah.... Maybe I'm just meant to be a loner!
Because of those people, I lost my self confidence. Yes, I'm blaming them for that. I can't open myself for everyone to see and understand because I'm used to be rejected everytime I try. So what now? I've become the "Supladita't Isnabera" in the block. I learned not to kiss anyone's ass no matter what. I loved my pride so much along the way.
Now in my years of living, you wouldn't believe but I never really had a true bestfriend. So here comes these people I call real friends. I was so, so thankful cause having people like them for me is so rare. I'm handling them in the way that I know. But as I realized, they're not making me feel the way that I thought it should be. They're not making me feel the way that I'm making them feel. Well, there's this one. He's so true and loyal. But he's still different above the others so it's way more complicated I think. And since I'm playing the role of Ms. Stupid here, for sure I'll loose him too, very soon.
I don't know how to work these things out. I'm nothing but a mess. So yeah, I'm clueless and soon will be going crazy. Anyways, maybe things just happen as the way they should. I'm not sure If I can accept the way they are about to be but if I'm really meant to be alone in life then so be it. Nah, I don't know.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
IT'S THE PLAIN ME...
IT'S ME AND MY NAME...
I'm Mia Isabelle Yuzon. My dad named me after ManiLa InternationaL Airport. errr.. I was born the day before Ninoy Aquino's anniversary of death at M.I.A. so dat's why. I hate it, but yeah, at Least it didn't become "NAIA". Sounds worse.. LoL.
Most of the peopLe caLL me Mia. here in the house, people call me either Miatot or Miaw (Miaw was originated by my dad). Friends call me Mia, and they call me Miatot too. If they're in the mood for tripping, sure they'll call me "Cultz". Don't ask why. I wouLdn't bother sharing. Some of my titas call me "iya". Most of my teachers/professors would call me Isabelle. errr.
MY YEARS OF LIVING in boredom???...
Im 19 y/o. I aLways feel sad thinkin' that soon I'll turn twenty. Wish I'm a teenager forever. Im scared of getting oLd! Not of the physicaL appearance, but of the challenges that couLd come. I'd have to say that though we weren't that weaLthy, i was spoiled, so in my future, I don't know if that would help. Yikes!
I spent 19 years of my life living only here in Manila. I rarely go out ever since computer was brought in this house. And in my past 3years, I wasn't able to go farther than metro maniLa. Hell yeah, d'you just realize how boring my life is? I think im so outdated now to the outside world so I promised to go wild 'n crazy again this coming semester break. LoL!
HOBBIES AND INTERESTS..
I'm an indoor person. im "lampayatot" and hate sports (oh, not reaLLy, but I'm not in to it). I enjoy doing...
VisuaL arts and design
I can paint, I can do sketches, but I'm not the best at it.
Cooking
Oooh well, I love eating. I have an unbelievable appetite for a normal girl and you wouldn't have an idea with my figure. So yeah, since i eat a lot, I know I should learn to cook for myself so learned to handle the kitchen at least.
Music
Yes I love music. But I can't call myself a music geek. I don't care of what genre I'm hearing. As long as it's cool, sure that'd be on my playlist. But I'm more attracted to female vocals. Well, I'm a female, so my behavior in listening to music is to look after songs that i can easily sing too. I don't have a particular "idoL" which I can call myself a die-hard fan for. But oh, I was once addicted to Juris of M.Y.M.P. and Lougee of Delara that's former Mojofly.
Writing
I don't usually write when I'm feeling happy. But on the bad times, writing is my best way of easing stress and pain. I have my journal notebook. But I get so busy these days so I can't fill it up like usual.
Shopping
Yes, i don't go out a lot. But shopping?? Oh come on, dare me. I would never say no!
MY TRAITS AND CHARACTERISTICS..
Phisically.... It's for you to find out. But don't base you're thoughts much on just looking by my photos. They can be deceiving you know. LoL.
I'm taLkative. heLL yeah and i find it hard to stop once i started. But not to strangers. How would you know if I feel comfy with a person or not? It's in the matter of how much I talk.
I don't drink, ever since i experienced being hella' drunk Last August 17, 2006. I was crazy as heLL, so nah'ah, never to do dat ever again. I don't smoke too. not cooL, but i wish to Learn at least. LoL.
im Loud and expressive of my ideas and opinions especially when I'm hurt or hate things. And I would normally have sleepless nights when I can't tell a person something that I have to.
Yes I'm talkative and loud. But I can be a good listener too! I can even be a diary. Secrets are safe here, I promise.
I'm mean. I can be the bestfriend but I can also be the worst enemy. It's not advisable to get me mad, really mad, cause I can be really, really crazy. I don't, as in I "don't" control my anger once it's in. And I rarely forgive and forget. Things are always listed inside here sweetie.
Love, Love, Love... im not showy at it. so baduy and corny!! errr. I have my own way of appreciating people and things and it's not the "pa'sweet" and "malambing" way.
I hate being dictated what to do when I actually know what I should. Hello? Like some said, "It's my world. People just live in it." And I don't live on other's world as well, meaning I don't kiss asses.
THE THINGS I'M CURRENTLY IN AND OTHERS..
I'm a B.A. student. But things are making me unsure of it right now (b*LL*hit, im starting to hate thesis reports!!). And "mathematics" is a one big hindrance for my studies and success! yes, i badLy hate numbers ever since. So i promised. If ever I become the country's president, I'd Leave the option to students whether to take that stupid subject or not! So just how cool is that? Vote for me! LoL.
IT'S ME AND THEM..
In meeting people, my first impressions don't usually last. Some that I thought are the cool ones ends to be the bad guys, and some that I thought are the monsters ends to be real people.
A person's humbleness is a very important matter that I look for. Shut those big air headed guys up! They're makin' me itchy and irritated. Those who know the word R.E.S.P.E.C.T. is what I need. And so here comes the "plastics". Yeah, just who doesn't hate them? Yes, people can't sometimes avoid being one, but gosh, I want something real.
* So that's the plain me and nothing else. I don't really care how people would accept me or if they can't. I just wanna' live my life the way I wanted and changes aren't in my plans just because people would tell me to do so. I'll change because I realized I have to.
I'm Mia Isabelle Yuzon. My dad named me after ManiLa InternationaL Airport. errr.. I was born the day before Ninoy Aquino's anniversary of death at M.I.A. so dat's why. I hate it, but yeah, at Least it didn't become "NAIA". Sounds worse.. LoL.
Most of the peopLe caLL me Mia. here in the house, people call me either Miatot or Miaw (Miaw was originated by my dad). Friends call me Mia, and they call me Miatot too. If they're in the mood for tripping, sure they'll call me "Cultz". Don't ask why. I wouLdn't bother sharing. Some of my titas call me "iya". Most of my teachers/professors would call me Isabelle. errr.
MY YEARS OF LIVING in boredom???...
Im 19 y/o. I aLways feel sad thinkin' that soon I'll turn twenty. Wish I'm a teenager forever. Im scared of getting oLd! Not of the physicaL appearance, but of the challenges that couLd come. I'd have to say that though we weren't that weaLthy, i was spoiled, so in my future, I don't know if that would help. Yikes!
I spent 19 years of my life living only here in Manila. I rarely go out ever since computer was brought in this house. And in my past 3years, I wasn't able to go farther than metro maniLa. Hell yeah, d'you just realize how boring my life is? I think im so outdated now to the outside world so I promised to go wild 'n crazy again this coming semester break. LoL!
HOBBIES AND INTERESTS..
I'm an indoor person. im "lampayatot" and hate sports (oh, not reaLLy, but I'm not in to it). I enjoy doing...
VisuaL arts and design
I can paint, I can do sketches, but I'm not the best at it.
Cooking
Oooh well, I love eating. I have an unbelievable appetite for a normal girl and you wouldn't have an idea with my figure. So yeah, since i eat a lot, I know I should learn to cook for myself so learned to handle the kitchen at least.
Music
Yes I love music. But I can't call myself a music geek. I don't care of what genre I'm hearing. As long as it's cool, sure that'd be on my playlist. But I'm more attracted to female vocals. Well, I'm a female, so my behavior in listening to music is to look after songs that i can easily sing too. I don't have a particular "idoL" which I can call myself a die-hard fan for. But oh, I was once addicted to Juris of M.Y.M.P. and Lougee of Delara that's former Mojofly.
Writing
I don't usually write when I'm feeling happy. But on the bad times, writing is my best way of easing stress and pain. I have my journal notebook. But I get so busy these days so I can't fill it up like usual.
Shopping
Yes, i don't go out a lot. But shopping?? Oh come on, dare me. I would never say no!
MY TRAITS AND CHARACTERISTICS..
Phisically.... It's for you to find out. But don't base you're thoughts much on just looking by my photos. They can be deceiving you know. LoL.
I'm taLkative. heLL yeah and i find it hard to stop once i started. But not to strangers. How would you know if I feel comfy with a person or not? It's in the matter of how much I talk.
I don't drink, ever since i experienced being hella' drunk Last August 17, 2006. I was crazy as heLL, so nah'ah, never to do dat ever again. I don't smoke too. not cooL, but i wish to Learn at least. LoL.
im Loud and expressive of my ideas and opinions especially when I'm hurt or hate things. And I would normally have sleepless nights when I can't tell a person something that I have to.
Yes I'm talkative and loud. But I can be a good listener too! I can even be a diary. Secrets are safe here, I promise.
I'm mean. I can be the bestfriend but I can also be the worst enemy. It's not advisable to get me mad, really mad, cause I can be really, really crazy. I don't, as in I "don't" control my anger once it's in. And I rarely forgive and forget. Things are always listed inside here sweetie.
Love, Love, Love... im not showy at it. so baduy and corny!! errr. I have my own way of appreciating people and things and it's not the "pa'sweet" and "malambing" way.
I hate being dictated what to do when I actually know what I should. Hello? Like some said, "It's my world. People just live in it." And I don't live on other's world as well, meaning I don't kiss asses.
THE THINGS I'M CURRENTLY IN AND OTHERS..
I'm a B.A. student. But things are making me unsure of it right now (b*LL*hit, im starting to hate thesis reports!!). And "mathematics" is a one big hindrance for my studies and success! yes, i badLy hate numbers ever since. So i promised. If ever I become the country's president, I'd Leave the option to students whether to take that stupid subject or not! So just how cool is that? Vote for me! LoL.
IT'S ME AND THEM..
In meeting people, my first impressions don't usually last. Some that I thought are the cool ones ends to be the bad guys, and some that I thought are the monsters ends to be real people.
A person's humbleness is a very important matter that I look for. Shut those big air headed guys up! They're makin' me itchy and irritated. Those who know the word R.E.S.P.E.C.T. is what I need. And so here comes the "plastics". Yeah, just who doesn't hate them? Yes, people can't sometimes avoid being one, but gosh, I want something real.
* So that's the plain me and nothing else. I don't really care how people would accept me or if they can't. I just wanna' live my life the way I wanted and changes aren't in my plans just because people would tell me to do so. I'll change because I realized I have to.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
500 questions survey !!!
1.What time is it?
- 11:21 pm - sept sumthin' 2008
PERSONAL
2.Do you want to answer these?
- sure
3.Name?
- mia
4.Name spelled backwards?
- aim
5.What is your quest?
- huh ?
6.Nickname?
- mia
7.Age?
- 19
8.Hometown?
- maniLa
9.What were you born in?
- q.c ph
10.Where do you live now?
- maniLa , ph
11.What state?
- ermm ..
12.Ever going to move?
- hmm ?
13.Would you rather live somewhere else?
- im fyn here
14.Birthdate?
- aug.20
15.When do you blow out your candles?
- wen it's my bday !
16.Day you were born?
- idk
17.Zodiac sign?
- Leo
18.Do you know what that is?
- yeah
19.Sex?
- femaLe
20.Height?
- errr .
21.Weight?
- dunno'
22.Eye color?
- bLack . but sme says it's brown ..
23.Hair color?
- bLack
24.Any siblings?
- yeah
25.Names and ages?
- ivan 17 , teng 15 , kikay 11 .
26.Do you get along with them?
- not much
27.Any pets?
- yeah
28.Names?
- bebe gian
29.Parents?
- yeah
30.Names?
- rico & fLuer
31.Do you get along with them?
- yes
32.Married or divorced?
- singLe , but on a relationship
33.How long?
- 2yrs en 5mos .
34.Website?
- http://www.friendster.com/miatotcultz
35.Email?
- ..
36.AOL s/n?
- ..
37.Yahoo s/n?
- ..
38.ICQ?
- ..
39.MSN?
- ..
40.How many people are on your buddy list?
- idk
41.Phone number?
- ..
42.Personality?
- hmmm ..
SCHOOL
43. Do you want to answer these?
- sure
44.What school do you go to?
- university of the east maniLa
45.What year are you?
- 3rd
46.What are you?
- hmm ?
47.Hardest class?
- math subjects !
48.Easiest class?
- minors
49.Most fun class?
- hmmm ..
50.What day did school start?
- mondays
51.Do you have classes with friends?
- yes
52.Do you have friends?
- yes
53.Do you go to school events?
- not much
54.What was the last event you went to?
- mtv campus crashers ..
55.Do you have school spirit?
- nah ..
56.Do you go to dances?
- na'ah ..
57.Stag or with someone?
- hmmm ?
RELATIONSHIPS
58. Do you want to answer these?
- okay
59.Have a significant other?
- yeah
60.What are their names?
- tharong panget !
61.How old are they?
- he's 20
62.How long have you been going out?
- 2yrs en 5mos .
63.Have you been faithful?
- yes
64.Do you have a crush?
- yes
65.Who?
- marc abaya !
66.Do they know you like them?
- yes
67.You ever going to tell them?
- yes
68.Do you have an online crush?
- nah ..
69.Who?
- ..
IN THE PAS 24 HOURS HAVE YOU?
70. Do you wonder why I’m asking these questions?
- yes
71.Had a serious talk?
- hmm , no
72. Hugged someone?
- yeah , bebe justine !
73.Fought with a friend?
- not reaLLy that way ..
74.Cried?
- no
75.Laughed?
- yes
76.Made someone laugh?
- no
77.Bought something?
- yes
78.Cut your hair?
- no
79.Felt stupid?
- no
80.Talked to someone you love?
- yes
81.Missed someone?
- yes
HAVE-YOU-EVER ?
82. You want me to tell you?
- teLL wat ?
83.Smoked?
- tried once ..
84.Stolen something?
- yeah , LoL .
85.Done drugs?
- never
86.Drank?
- yes
87.Gotten drunk?
- umm , yeah
88.Eaten an entire box of Oreos?
- no
89.Been dumped?
- ummm .. yes ..
90.Had someone be unfaithful to you?
- yes
91.Hiked up a mountain?
- nah ..
92. Stayed home on Saturday night, just because?
- net surfing !
93.Been in love?
- yeah .
94.Seen the White House?
- on tv % pix
95.Seen the Eiffel Tower?
- on tv % pix
96.Try smoking?
- once
97.Played monopoly?
- yes
98.Seen Titanic?
- the movie , yes
99.Kissed someone?
- yes
100.Tried a weight loss program?
- nah ..
101.Jumped on a trampoline?
- no
102.Colored in a coloring book (and had fun)?
- yes wen i was a LittLe !
103.Had a bubble bath?
- yes
104.Stolen something?
- hey , it's d 84th question !
105.Been on a boat?
- yes , at Least ..
106.Been on a train?
- once ..
107.Been in a car accident?
- no
108.Ridden an elephant?
- yikes , no
109.Made a web page?
- not reaLLy
110.Played with Barbies?
- a lot !
111.Stay up all night?
- yes
112.Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look clean?
- yeah , LoL .
113.Called a psychic or sex hotline?
- na'ah
114.Watched Jerry Springer?
- yes
115.Gotten in trouble for talking in class?
- yes
116.Been afraid of the dark?
- yes
117.Been in the hospital (not visiting)?
- yes
118.Had stitches?
- nah
119.Dumped someone and regretted it?
- not reaLLy
120.Gone out with more than one person at a time?
- no
121.Lied?
- yes
122.Been arrested?
- never
123.Fallen asleep in class?
- yes
124.Gotten in trouble in class?
- yes
125.Used food for something other than to eat?
- yes . pLayed ..
126.Met a celebrity?
- yes
127.Broken the law?
- maybe
128.Ever loved someone so much it made you cry?
- yes . wen i was so young and innocent .
129.Hated yourself?
- for wat ?
130.Been brokenhearted?
- yes
131.Broken someone’s heart?
- yes , i guess
132.Are you a virgin?
- yes !
133.Done something really stupid?
- umm , yeah ..
134.Been arrested?
- hey again , that's d 122th question !
135.Hurt a friend?
- umm , yes
136.Broken a bone?
- yes !
137.Ever had a crush on a teacher?
- yes , yes ! LoL
FAVOLRITES
138. Why do you want to know? curious.
- fine
139.Guy name?
- caLixto ! wen i get a son .
140.Girl name?
- i stiLL can't decide 4 dat ..
141.Nationality?
- fiLipino of course . but i aLwways think being a japanese is cooL !
142.Color?
- yeLLow .. but it's not d yeLLow bLast thing .. na'ah ..
143.Holiday?
- christmas ! but every hoLiday's my favorite ! yey !
144.Day of the week?
- weekends !
145.Restaurant?
- trattoria
146.Fastfood restaurant?
- joLLibee !!
147.Food?
- pizza , pasta , ughhh , and more .. soo hard to think
148.Animal?
- cats
149.Pet?
- bebe gian
150.Store?
- joyo
151.Mall?
- sm . LoL
152.Clothes brand?
- bny .. but cLothes from random stores , not so popular stores aren't bad
153.Soda?
- fruit soda ! LoL .
154.Alcohol?
- nah , i don't drink
155.Instrument?
- i can't pLay T.T
156.Season?
- summer , except 4 d heat !
157.Number?
- does that reaLLy matter ?
158.Radio station?
- meLLow 94.7 sounds gud !!!
159.Song?
- there's many
160.Sport?
- errr , i don't hav a sport
161.Vacation spot?
- ughh , anywhere w/out d heat of d sun
162.State?
- hmmm
163.Country?
- piLipinas !
164.Flower?
- red roses
165.Perfume?
- Luna paLavi
166.Thing to do?
- net surfing
167.Actor?
- too many hot'n cute actors to mention !
168.Actress?
- angeLina jolie , cameron diaz , jeon ji hyun ..
169.Saying?
- "everything wiLL be okay in the ed .. if it's not okay then it's not the end .. "
cooL !!
170.Car?
-
idk much 'bout cars but , sure d most Luxurious one wud do !
171.Month?
- august , december
172.Cartoon?
- hmmm
173.T.V.Show?
- many to mention
174.Website?
- friendster , crunchyroLL
175.Book?
- i don't read much
176.Quality about yourself?
- ummm . wat d'you think ?
177.Your best friend?
- tharong panget .. (w/c is aLso my bf)
178.Your best guy friend?
- stiLL him !
179.Your best girl friend?
- hmmm ..
180.Fruit?
- lychees .. appLes .. yum !
181.Vegetable?
- errr , i don't eat vegies !
182.Meat?
- beef
183.Quote?
- hmmm , id stiLL have to think of dat ..
184.Saying?
- hey again again again !!! d 169th !!!!
185.Type of movie?
- romance with comedy .. femaLe Lead actions ..
186.Candy?
- sugus !
187.Language?
- tagaLog , engLish
188.Magazine?
- metro , vogue .. better homes & gardens ! LoL .
189.CD?
- mojofLy now
190.Store?
- errr not again !! the 150th !!! hu ever made this sucks !!!!
191.Movie?
- WINDSTRUCK !!!!!
192.Day of the week?
- TSK .. DUMB ASS ..
193.Singer?
- too many to mention
194.Band?
- mojofLy/deLara , udd , fLyLeaf
MISC
195.Why are you so curious?
- of wat ?
196.Like to swim?
- nah
197.Like to dance?
- no
198.Have a pool?
- no
199.Have a car?
- wen i graduate next year ! yey !
200.Going to get a car?
- i juz toLd
201.Your motto?
- wat goes around comes around
202.What do you look for in a friend?
- LoyaL , understanding , true
203.What do you look for in the opposite sex?
- attitude/skiLLs/taLent
204.Time you get up?
- usuaLLy 8
205.Time you go to bed?
- 1am
206.What color are the sheets on your bed?
- blue
207.How many pillows?
- 4
208.Ever skip school?
- yes
209.Have you ever been convicted of a crime?
- no no
210.What did you eat for dinner?
- chicken adobo
211.What are you wearing?
- cLothes . LoL
212.What movie makes you cry?
- windstruck !!
213.What book makes you cry?
- i don't read a Lot
214.What song makes you cry?
- nothing reaLLy , unLess it comes out with a reaLLy sad scene .
215.What/Who makes you laugh so hard you cry?
- hmm , random peopLe/stuffs
216.What is your favorite possession?
- aghhh , everything i own
217.What physical, tangible possession do you want most?
- hmmm , hmmm , hmm ....
218.How badly do you want it?
- reaL reaL bad !!
219.Have you ever seen The Exorcist?
- nah
220.How long did it take you to understand why that question is here?
- i didn't reaLLy care
221.Does Christmas music played too far away from Christmas annoy you?
- not reaLLy
222.How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older?
- ryt now , being 19 .. errr , im not a teenager anymore after a year !! gosh , i dun wana get any older !!!
223.What was the best Halloween costume you ever had?
- oh , i do't wear those
224.What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had?
- i said , i don't wear halloween costumes !!!
225.What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning?
- christmas !
226.There are currently no federal holidays during August-what should be put there?
- my birhday ! LoL
227.How good is your short-term memory?
- not gud at aLL ..
228.How good is your short-term memory?
- tsk , tsk , tsk ..
229.(Not very good I see, I repeated that question, did you notice?
- ah , okay , so dat's 4 a purpose .. so wat about d other questions uve repeated huh ???
230.How good is your long-term memory?
- hmm , are u up to sumthing again ?
231.What is your earliest memory?
- hmmm ... ?
232.What is your happiest memory (other than receiving this survey)?
- d'you reaLLy think answering this is olne of d happiest thingy ?
233.What is your strangest memory?
- random stuffs
234.What is your worst memory?
- random stuffs
235.What song, movie, etc.
- * sigh *
236.What song, movie, etc.
- u'r hopeless man ..
237.What size are your feet?
- 5-6
238.If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
- irritated
239.Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going "blind"?
-know first
240.Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member?
- my bf's Like dat !
241.Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?
- sumtyms
242.What’s your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
- stupid
243.Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
- yes , haha !
244.Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking?
- ask them !
245.Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last?
- sure !
246.Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69?
- no
247.Were you lying about your answer to the previous question?
- no
248.Do you actually know your Social Security Number?
- do i hav dat ?
249.Do you actually know your IP address?
- nah ..
250.Do you know what an IP address is?
- yes
251.Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code?
- no
252.Ever think there were too many numbers floating around in our lives?
- yes , en' im sick of it !
253.Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity,imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.?
- heLL yeah !
254.What do you think of pi, you know, 3.14152967 etc..?
- Like i care .. errr ..
255.Do you have a driver’s license?
- no
256.Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it?
- yes yes !
257.What celebrity’s autograph do you want most?
- hmm , i don't bother Looking after it
258.Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who?
- yes , LoL . ask them ..
259.If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)?
- hmm , im gonna have to think of that
260.Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can’t remember who they are?
- yes
261.If you could enter any celebrity’s mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter?
- marc abaya !
262.Do you want to be John Malkovich?
- no
263.Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender?
- no
264.What do you love most about the other gender?
- hmmm ..
265.What do you dislike most about the other gender?
- they don't understand things d way my same gender does
266.What do you understand least about the other gender?
- hmmm ..
267.Mac or PC?
- hmmm ..
268.How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer or is it only as long as it works?
- as Long as it works .. haha !
269.Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation?
- not much
270.Do you find you’re different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone?
- id rather go taLk with a telephone
271.Have you ever bid on something on eBay and regretted it later?
- nah ..
272.If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
- member ?? name ? idk ..
273.Would you name a child of yours after you?
- no , my name's not so cooL ..
274.If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with?
- umm , id stiLL have to thnk ..
275.What’s the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? .
- sumtyms , "meya" , or "maya" .. LoL
276.If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name (like Madonna, Cher, Roseanne)?
- no
277.Like to give hugs?
- not reaLLy
278.Like to walk in the rain?
- i hate getting wet under the rain
279.Sleep with or without clothes on?
- with
280.Prefer black or blue pens?
- bLack
281.Dress up on Halloween?
- nah
282.Sleep on your side, tummy or back?
- tummy
283.Think you’re attractive?
- idk , ask them
284.Want to marry?
- someday
285.Have a goldfish?
- no , i don't
286.Ever have the falling dream?
- ah , yeah
287.Have stuffed animals?
-yes
288.Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?
- umm , yes
289.Do you think God has a gender?
- maybe he's a male .. but to thnk of it .. nahh , idk ..
290.Do you think science counteracts religion?
- my teacher from hs taught , science is onLy the continuation of reLigion .
but as i see it , maybe god sent us his creations en' stuffs using science ..
291.Do you believe in organized religion?
- hmm ..
292.Where do you think we go when we die?
- just how da' heLL wud i know ???
293.How easy is it to make you laugh?
- not so easy , but not so hard ..
295.Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn’t?
- sometyms
296.Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn’t?
- sometyms
297.What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile?
- hmmm ..
298.What do you think is the funniest thing you’ve ever said or written?
- idk
299.Do you ever dance to music when nobody’s watching, when someone’s watching?
- sometyms , LoL .
300.What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard?
- urmmm ...
301.What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better?
- hmmm
302.What song(s) are constantly in your head?
- u mean LSS ? there's nothing ryt now
303.What song(s) do you think describe your personality best?
- ermmm , u aLways have these questions i cannot easiLy answer !
304.If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) would you use?
- idc
305.If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used?
- err
306.What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to?
- aLL the movies i Love seems to be Lved by others too
307.Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original?
- u mean reaLity ? nah reaLity's worse
308.Who’s your favorite Star Wars character?
- i was never interested in star wars
309.What kind of movie do you think there should be more of?
- u taLkin' 'bout category ? weLL , i love romance comedy ..
310.What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of?
- hmmm ..
311.When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness?
- taste .. -.-
312.What’s your favorite kind of cheese?
- idc much of wat kind .. as Long as it's melted .. oooh yurmm !
313.What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality?
- u think ..
314.If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food,hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it?
- if it's cLean , yeah ..
315.Do you ever feel guilty eating meat?
- no . i Lurve meat !!
FRIENDS
316.What a unique category, don’t you think?
- not usuaL , but so unique ..
317.Are you sure you have friends?
- at Least , yeah ..
318.Best friend?
- tharong panget (aLso my bf) .. w8 , uve asked his b4 !
319.Second-best friend?
- hmmm ..
320.Email the most?
- i don't do emaiLs a Lot
321.Call the most?
- taleng
322.IM the most?
- hmm ..
323.Best friend of the opposite sex?
- tharong panget i said !
324.Best offline friend?
- hhhhhhh ...
325.Best online friend?
- weLL , there are some ..
326.Which friend do you dislike the most?
- my p2 friends ! idL wat they did !
327.Person you can always confide in?
- tinay , jec , taLeng
328.Person that you can talk to for 12 hours straight and never get bored?
- hmmm , ive never done that
329.In a fight or annoyed?
- not reaLLy a fight . thigs are just messed up 4 me ryt now ..
330.Friend’s house you sleep at the most?
- nah , hey go here instead
331.Friend’s house you wish you could sleep at but can’t?
- hmmm ..
332.Who is the first number on your speed dial?
- it's not activated
333.Who would you take away on a week vacation?
- famiLy
334.Craziest?
- tax
335.Weirdest?
- khaye. haha
336.Most fun?
- most of 'em
337.Saddest?
- hmmm ..
338.Quietest?
- or u meant most quiet ?
339.Who knows you the best?
- tharong panget
340.Who do you know the best?
- tharong panget too !
341.Who do you like to shop with?
- tinay
342.Talk with?
- aLL of 'em
343.Trust the most?
- myseLf .. LoL
344.Flirt with?
- tharong panget ! LoL
345.Laugh with?
- aLL of 'em
346.Give advice to?
- bonits .. hu aLways asks for ..
347.Who gives you advice?
- most of 'em
348.Best singer?
- jec
349.Best athlete?
- hmmm ..
350.Who is the nicest?
- tinay
351.Who is the meanest?
- donna ! haha !
352.Best dancer?
- taLeng
353.Best writer?
- hmm ..
354.Best smile?
- hmm ..
355.Most creative?
- jec
356.Best dressed?
- hmm ..
357.Best shoes?
- hmm ..
358.Who doesn’t care if they lie?
- i am ! LoL.
359.Who can’t lie?
- tax ! can't even make simpLe excuse to his dad !
360.Most innocent?
- taLeng??
361.Most innocent looking?
- tinay . haha !
362.Rebel?
- i am , among us .. i think
363.Moodiest?
- joanne
364.Happiest?
- aLex !
365.Cutest?
- i am ! LoL
DO/ARE/WHO'S?
366. It’s because I’m bored, can’t you figure that out?
- wtf
367.Religious?
- not reaLLy
368.Try to be fashionable?
- yes
369.Think fashion is important?
- yes
370.Get along with your family?
- umm , yeah
371.Get along with your friends?
- yes
372.Get grounded?
- not so much
373.Know any foreign languages?
- just engLish
374.Run into walls/doors?
- i wish
375.Blonde?
- no
376.Who do you talk to most online?
- hmm ..
377.Who do you talk to most on the phone?
- tharong opanget
378.Are you a bum?
- hmm , sumtyms
379.Do you get online a lot?
- yes
380.Do you shower?
- of course
381.Do you hate school?
- yes !
382.Do you have a social life?
- i was stuck here at home for weeks .. so , do i ?
383.Do you trust people easily?
- no
384.Have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?
- hmm , yeah
385.Are you a dare devil?
- meaning ?
386.Would you ever sky dive?
- no way
387.Do you like to dance?
- no
388.Are you funny?
- idts
389.Are you a serious person?
- sLight
390.Do you make friends easily?
- no .. idk
391.Do you work out?
- no
392.Do you like to work out?
- no
393.How much can you bench press?
- i don't
394.How much can you lift?
- i can't
395.Are you a popular person?
- idts
396.Do you have plans for your future?
- of course
397.Do you plan to go to college?
- i am in coLLege ryt now
398.Do you play sports?
- no
399.Do you like sports?
- no
400.Do you play an instrument?
- i wish
401.Know what you want to be when you get older?
- yes
402.Ever been out of state?
- no
403.Out of the country?
- not yet
404.Do you like to travel?
- not reaLLy
405.What do YOU think of the way you look?
- yes
406.What do YOU think about your attitude?
- not cooL
407.What do you think about life after death?
- im cLueLess !!
408.What do you think about karma?
- i beLive in it. peopLe deserves it.
409.What do you think about love?
- corny en baduy . but LoL. Larb it !!
410.What do you think about fate?
- idk but .. we're d ones making it ..
411.What do you think about yourself?
- crazy
412.What do you tell yourself if times get hard?
- i'm a mess
413.What would you give your life for?
- idk
414.What do you think about your first love?
- it died ages ago. thank god !
415.What do you think about the first person that loved you?
- that'd be my parents! Love 'em too!
416.What are you scared of?
- death
417.Do you cry easily?
- not aLL the time
418.Who/What is something/someone that has touched you?
- hmm ..
419.What was the saddest moment of your life?
- many to mention but .. one of it is when my mama marceLa died T.T
420.What would life be without friends?
- boring
421.Without family?
- id rather not exist
422.Without you?
- miserabLe! LoL.
423.Are you deep?
- sumtyms not
424.Do you think love is once in a lifetime, or just chance?
- a chance maybe . but nah, idk
425.Do you like your town?
- yes
426.Do you wanna get out of your town?
- sure
427.What design/logo is on your mouse pad?
- nokia
428.What color is your mouse pad?
- green
429.Drink a lot of water?
- not a Lolt, but im trying tol
430.Have a cell phone/beeper/etc.?
- yes
431.Do you like amusement parks?
- not bad
432.Have you ever been to 6 Flags?
- wat's wit that ?
433.What namebrand do you wear the most?
- bny
434.Do you like taking pictures?
- yes
435.Do you like getting your picture taken?
- sure
436.Do you have a tan?
- nah
437.Do you get annoyed easily?
- yes
438.What are you hobbies?
- net surfing, singing&dancig in private! writing, sLeeping, cooking, eating ..
439.Do you have your own phone/phone line?
- yes
440.Do you have any posters/pinups on your bedroom walls?
- nah
441.Are you sick of this survey yet?
- kinda' ...........
442.Do you get good grades in school?
- not now .. T.T
443.How do you vent your anger?
- weLL, i sumtyms Love being mad
444.Are you a role model?
- not reaLLy
445.Who do you look up to?
- parents
446.Who do you trust the most?
- parents
447.Do you have any piercings?
- yes
448.Do you have any tattoos?
- nah
449.Do you dream a lot?
- yes
450.Do you daydream a lot?
- yes, a reaL Lot
451.Have you had a nightmare lately?
- yes en it's errrr ..
452.Do you have any allergies?
- nah
453.Do you have any health problems?
- nah . maybe soon
454.Do you like animals?
- no no!
455.Do you have any pets?
- but at Least yeah ..
456.Do you like siblings?
- err ..
457.Do you have glasses/contacts?
- i don't need them
458.Do you have braces?
- nah
459.Do you have a job?
- im stiLL studying !
460.Have you ever been fired from a job?
- wtf
461.Who did YOU want to be President?
- myseLf !! LoL
462.Who would you vote for, if anyone, and why?
- i wudn't mind . i hate poLiticians
463.Do you have a curfew?
- nah
464.Are you a vegetarian?
- i don't eat veggies
465.Could you be a vegetarian?
- never!!
466.Have you ever thought about suicide? .
- nah .. yes im crazy .. but not as crazy as that
467.Do you like coffee?
- not bad
468.Do you have a sweet tooth?
- not so sweet
469.Do you like horror movies?
- not much
470.Do you like to spend or save your money?
- save untiL i spend
471.Do you keep your room clean?
- im busy.. LoL
472.Do yours well?
- wat ??
473.Do you eat vegetables?
- i just said
474.Are you a flirt?
- maybe .. LoL
475.Are you good at flirting?
- idk
476.Do you like to go to parties?
- sure
477.Do you still go trick or treating?
- nah
478.Are you an angel or a little devil?
- a LittLe deviL
479.Do you get along with people?
- maybe not
480.Have you ever just started dancing/singing in the middle of somewhere?
- back in h.s ..
481.Have you ever won anything?
- at Least yeah ..
482.Do you have a waterbed or a regular bed?
- reguLar
483.What size?
- good for 2
484.Do you get bored easily?
- yes
485.Do you play golf?
- nah
486.Do you play miniature golf?
- nah
487.Do you like tennis?
- nah
488.Are you flexible?
- hmmm .. not everytime
489.Are you a sweet heart?
- idk
490.Would you like to be cloned?
- no way !!
491.What are your opinions on cloning?
- not cooL
493.Scaramouche,scaramouche, will you do the fandango?
- mama mia, mama mia, mama mia Let me go .. magnifico !!
494.Did you like this survey?
- not much. some questions are annoying
495.Are you sorry you began filling it out?
- no .. a time kiLLer
496.What questions do you wish it had asked?
- guess wat ?
497.How would you have answered them?
- guess how ??
THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
498.When was the last time you let the people you love/people who are important to you know you love them/that they are important to you?
- i dont reaLLy rmember ..
499.What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know?
- id reaLLy c .. i wud teLL them if they wanna know sumthing ..
500.What time is it?
- 7:21 - oct 18 .. LoL, it's been a month ..
- 11:21 pm - sept sumthin' 2008
PERSONAL
2.Do you want to answer these?
- sure
3.Name?
- mia
4.Name spelled backwards?
- aim
5.What is your quest?
- huh ?
6.Nickname?
- mia
7.Age?
- 19
8.Hometown?
- maniLa
9.What were you born in?
- q.c ph
10.Where do you live now?
- maniLa , ph
11.What state?
- ermm ..
12.Ever going to move?
- hmm ?
13.Would you rather live somewhere else?
- im fyn here
14.Birthdate?
- aug.20
15.When do you blow out your candles?
- wen it's my bday !
16.Day you were born?
- idk
17.Zodiac sign?
- Leo
18.Do you know what that is?
- yeah
19.Sex?
- femaLe
20.Height?
- errr .
21.Weight?
- dunno'
22.Eye color?
- bLack . but sme says it's brown ..
23.Hair color?
- bLack
24.Any siblings?
- yeah
25.Names and ages?
- ivan 17 , teng 15 , kikay 11 .
26.Do you get along with them?
- not much
27.Any pets?
- yeah
28.Names?
- bebe gian
29.Parents?
- yeah
30.Names?
- rico & fLuer
31.Do you get along with them?
- yes
32.Married or divorced?
- singLe , but on a relationship
33.How long?
- 2yrs en 5mos .
34.Website?
- http://www.friendster.com/miatotcultz
35.Email?
- ..
36.AOL s/n?
- ..
37.Yahoo s/n?
- ..
38.ICQ?
- ..
39.MSN?
- ..
40.How many people are on your buddy list?
- idk
41.Phone number?
- ..
42.Personality?
- hmmm ..
SCHOOL
43. Do you want to answer these?
- sure
44.What school do you go to?
- university of the east maniLa
45.What year are you?
- 3rd
46.What are you?
- hmm ?
47.Hardest class?
- math subjects !
48.Easiest class?
- minors
49.Most fun class?
- hmmm ..
50.What day did school start?
- mondays
51.Do you have classes with friends?
- yes
52.Do you have friends?
- yes
53.Do you go to school events?
- not much
54.What was the last event you went to?
- mtv campus crashers ..
55.Do you have school spirit?
- nah ..
56.Do you go to dances?
- na'ah ..
57.Stag or with someone?
- hmmm ?
RELATIONSHIPS
58. Do you want to answer these?
- okay
59.Have a significant other?
- yeah
60.What are their names?
- tharong panget !
61.How old are they?
- he's 20
62.How long have you been going out?
- 2yrs en 5mos .
63.Have you been faithful?
- yes
64.Do you have a crush?
- yes
65.Who?
- marc abaya !
66.Do they know you like them?
- yes
67.You ever going to tell them?
- yes
68.Do you have an online crush?
- nah ..
69.Who?
- ..
IN THE PAS 24 HOURS HAVE YOU?
70. Do you wonder why I’m asking these questions?
- yes
71.Had a serious talk?
- hmm , no
72. Hugged someone?
- yeah , bebe justine !
73.Fought with a friend?
- not reaLLy that way ..
74.Cried?
- no
75.Laughed?
- yes
76.Made someone laugh?
- no
77.Bought something?
- yes
78.Cut your hair?
- no
79.Felt stupid?
- no
80.Talked to someone you love?
- yes
81.Missed someone?
- yes
HAVE-YOU-EVER ?
82. You want me to tell you?
- teLL wat ?
83.Smoked?
- tried once ..
84.Stolen something?
- yeah , LoL .
85.Done drugs?
- never
86.Drank?
- yes
87.Gotten drunk?
- umm , yeah
88.Eaten an entire box of Oreos?
- no
89.Been dumped?
- ummm .. yes ..
90.Had someone be unfaithful to you?
- yes
91.Hiked up a mountain?
- nah ..
92. Stayed home on Saturday night, just because?
- net surfing !
93.Been in love?
- yeah .
94.Seen the White House?
- on tv % pix
95.Seen the Eiffel Tower?
- on tv % pix
96.Try smoking?
- once
97.Played monopoly?
- yes
98.Seen Titanic?
- the movie , yes
99.Kissed someone?
- yes
100.Tried a weight loss program?
- nah ..
101.Jumped on a trampoline?
- no
102.Colored in a coloring book (and had fun)?
- yes wen i was a LittLe !
103.Had a bubble bath?
- yes
104.Stolen something?
- hey , it's d 84th question !
105.Been on a boat?
- yes , at Least ..
106.Been on a train?
- once ..
107.Been in a car accident?
- no
108.Ridden an elephant?
- yikes , no
109.Made a web page?
- not reaLLy
110.Played with Barbies?
- a lot !
111.Stay up all night?
- yes
112.Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look clean?
- yeah , LoL .
113.Called a psychic or sex hotline?
- na'ah
114.Watched Jerry Springer?
- yes
115.Gotten in trouble for talking in class?
- yes
116.Been afraid of the dark?
- yes
117.Been in the hospital (not visiting)?
- yes
118.Had stitches?
- nah
119.Dumped someone and regretted it?
- not reaLLy
120.Gone out with more than one person at a time?
- no
121.Lied?
- yes
122.Been arrested?
- never
123.Fallen asleep in class?
- yes
124.Gotten in trouble in class?
- yes
125.Used food for something other than to eat?
- yes . pLayed ..
126.Met a celebrity?
- yes
127.Broken the law?
- maybe
128.Ever loved someone so much it made you cry?
- yes . wen i was so young and innocent .
129.Hated yourself?
- for wat ?
130.Been brokenhearted?
- yes
131.Broken someone’s heart?
- yes , i guess
132.Are you a virgin?
- yes !
133.Done something really stupid?
- umm , yeah ..
134.Been arrested?
- hey again , that's d 122th question !
135.Hurt a friend?
- umm , yes
136.Broken a bone?
- yes !
137.Ever had a crush on a teacher?
- yes , yes ! LoL
FAVOLRITES
138. Why do you want to know? curious.
- fine
139.Guy name?
- caLixto ! wen i get a son .
140.Girl name?
- i stiLL can't decide 4 dat ..
141.Nationality?
- fiLipino of course . but i aLwways think being a japanese is cooL !
142.Color?
- yeLLow .. but it's not d yeLLow bLast thing .. na'ah ..
143.Holiday?
- christmas ! but every hoLiday's my favorite ! yey !
144.Day of the week?
- weekends !
145.Restaurant?
- trattoria
146.Fastfood restaurant?
- joLLibee !!
147.Food?
- pizza , pasta , ughhh , and more .. soo hard to think
148.Animal?
- cats
149.Pet?
- bebe gian
150.Store?
- joyo
151.Mall?
- sm . LoL
152.Clothes brand?
- bny .. but cLothes from random stores , not so popular stores aren't bad
153.Soda?
- fruit soda ! LoL .
154.Alcohol?
- nah , i don't drink
155.Instrument?
- i can't pLay T.T
156.Season?
- summer , except 4 d heat !
157.Number?
- does that reaLLy matter ?
158.Radio station?
- meLLow 94.7 sounds gud !!!
159.Song?
- there's many
160.Sport?
- errr , i don't hav a sport
161.Vacation spot?
- ughh , anywhere w/out d heat of d sun
162.State?
- hmmm
163.Country?
- piLipinas !
164.Flower?
- red roses
165.Perfume?
- Luna paLavi
166.Thing to do?
- net surfing
167.Actor?
- too many hot'n cute actors to mention !
168.Actress?
- angeLina jolie , cameron diaz , jeon ji hyun ..
169.Saying?
- "everything wiLL be okay in the ed .. if it's not okay then it's not the end .. "
cooL !!
170.Car?
-
idk much 'bout cars but , sure d most Luxurious one wud do !
171.Month?
- august , december
172.Cartoon?
- hmmm
173.T.V.Show?
- many to mention
174.Website?
- friendster , crunchyroLL
175.Book?
- i don't read much
176.Quality about yourself?
- ummm . wat d'you think ?
177.Your best friend?
- tharong panget .. (w/c is aLso my bf)
178.Your best guy friend?
- stiLL him !
179.Your best girl friend?
- hmmm ..
180.Fruit?
- lychees .. appLes .. yum !
181.Vegetable?
- errr , i don't eat vegies !
182.Meat?
- beef
183.Quote?
- hmmm , id stiLL have to think of dat ..
184.Saying?
- hey again again again !!! d 169th !!!!
185.Type of movie?
- romance with comedy .. femaLe Lead actions ..
186.Candy?
- sugus !
187.Language?
- tagaLog , engLish
188.Magazine?
- metro , vogue .. better homes & gardens ! LoL .
189.CD?
- mojofLy now
190.Store?
- errr not again !! the 150th !!! hu ever made this sucks !!!!
191.Movie?
- WINDSTRUCK !!!!!
192.Day of the week?
- TSK .. DUMB ASS ..
193.Singer?
- too many to mention
194.Band?
- mojofLy/deLara , udd , fLyLeaf
MISC
195.Why are you so curious?
- of wat ?
196.Like to swim?
- nah
197.Like to dance?
- no
198.Have a pool?
- no
199.Have a car?
- wen i graduate next year ! yey !
200.Going to get a car?
- i juz toLd
201.Your motto?
- wat goes around comes around
202.What do you look for in a friend?
- LoyaL , understanding , true
203.What do you look for in the opposite sex?
- attitude/skiLLs/taLent
204.Time you get up?
- usuaLLy 8
205.Time you go to bed?
- 1am
206.What color are the sheets on your bed?
- blue
207.How many pillows?
- 4
208.Ever skip school?
- yes
209.Have you ever been convicted of a crime?
- no no
210.What did you eat for dinner?
- chicken adobo
211.What are you wearing?
- cLothes . LoL
212.What movie makes you cry?
- windstruck !!
213.What book makes you cry?
- i don't read a Lot
214.What song makes you cry?
- nothing reaLLy , unLess it comes out with a reaLLy sad scene .
215.What/Who makes you laugh so hard you cry?
- hmm , random peopLe/stuffs
216.What is your favorite possession?
- aghhh , everything i own
217.What physical, tangible possession do you want most?
- hmmm , hmmm , hmm ....
218.How badly do you want it?
- reaL reaL bad !!
219.Have you ever seen The Exorcist?
- nah
220.How long did it take you to understand why that question is here?
- i didn't reaLLy care
221.Does Christmas music played too far away from Christmas annoy you?
- not reaLLy
222.How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older?
- ryt now , being 19 .. errr , im not a teenager anymore after a year !! gosh , i dun wana get any older !!!
223.What was the best Halloween costume you ever had?
- oh , i do't wear those
224.What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had?
- i said , i don't wear halloween costumes !!!
225.What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning?
- christmas !
226.There are currently no federal holidays during August-what should be put there?
- my birhday ! LoL
227.How good is your short-term memory?
- not gud at aLL ..
228.How good is your short-term memory?
- tsk , tsk , tsk ..
229.(Not very good I see, I repeated that question, did you notice?
- ah , okay , so dat's 4 a purpose .. so wat about d other questions uve repeated huh ???
230.How good is your long-term memory?
- hmm , are u up to sumthing again ?
231.What is your earliest memory?
- hmmm ... ?
232.What is your happiest memory (other than receiving this survey)?
- d'you reaLLy think answering this is olne of d happiest thingy ?
233.What is your strangest memory?
- random stuffs
234.What is your worst memory?
- random stuffs
235.What song, movie, etc.
- * sigh *
236.What song, movie, etc.
- u'r hopeless man ..
237.What size are your feet?
- 5-6
238.If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
- irritated
239.Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going "blind"?
-know first
240.Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member?
- my bf's Like dat !
241.Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?
- sumtyms
242.What’s your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
- stupid
243.Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
- yes , haha !
244.Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking?
- ask them !
245.Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last?
- sure !
246.Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69?
- no
247.Were you lying about your answer to the previous question?
- no
248.Do you actually know your Social Security Number?
- do i hav dat ?
249.Do you actually know your IP address?
- nah ..
250.Do you know what an IP address is?
- yes
251.Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code?
- no
252.Ever think there were too many numbers floating around in our lives?
- yes , en' im sick of it !
253.Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity,imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.?
- heLL yeah !
254.What do you think of pi, you know, 3.14152967 etc..?
- Like i care .. errr ..
255.Do you have a driver’s license?
- no
256.Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it?
- yes yes !
257.What celebrity’s autograph do you want most?
- hmm , i don't bother Looking after it
258.Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who?
- yes , LoL . ask them ..
259.If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)?
- hmm , im gonna have to think of that
260.Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can’t remember who they are?
- yes
261.If you could enter any celebrity’s mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter?
- marc abaya !
262.Do you want to be John Malkovich?
- no
263.Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender?
- no
264.What do you love most about the other gender?
- hmmm ..
265.What do you dislike most about the other gender?
- they don't understand things d way my same gender does
266.What do you understand least about the other gender?
- hmmm ..
267.Mac or PC?
- hmmm ..
268.How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer or is it only as long as it works?
- as Long as it works .. haha !
269.Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation?
- not much
270.Do you find you’re different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone?
- id rather go taLk with a telephone
271.Have you ever bid on something on eBay and regretted it later?
- nah ..
272.If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
- member ?? name ? idk ..
273.Would you name a child of yours after you?
- no , my name's not so cooL ..
274.If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with?
- umm , id stiLL have to thnk ..
275.What’s the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? .
- sumtyms , "meya" , or "maya" .. LoL
276.If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name (like Madonna, Cher, Roseanne)?
- no
277.Like to give hugs?
- not reaLLy
278.Like to walk in the rain?
- i hate getting wet under the rain
279.Sleep with or without clothes on?
- with
280.Prefer black or blue pens?
- bLack
281.Dress up on Halloween?
- nah
282.Sleep on your side, tummy or back?
- tummy
283.Think you’re attractive?
- idk , ask them
284.Want to marry?
- someday
285.Have a goldfish?
- no , i don't
286.Ever have the falling dream?
- ah , yeah
287.Have stuffed animals?
-yes
288.Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?
- umm , yes
289.Do you think God has a gender?
- maybe he's a male .. but to thnk of it .. nahh , idk ..
290.Do you think science counteracts religion?
- my teacher from hs taught , science is onLy the continuation of reLigion .
but as i see it , maybe god sent us his creations en' stuffs using science ..
291.Do you believe in organized religion?
- hmm ..
292.Where do you think we go when we die?
- just how da' heLL wud i know ???
293.How easy is it to make you laugh?
- not so easy , but not so hard ..
295.Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn’t?
- sometyms
296.Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn’t?
- sometyms
297.What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile?
- hmmm ..
298.What do you think is the funniest thing you’ve ever said or written?
- idk
299.Do you ever dance to music when nobody’s watching, when someone’s watching?
- sometyms , LoL .
300.What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard?
- urmmm ...
301.What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better?
- hmmm
302.What song(s) are constantly in your head?
- u mean LSS ? there's nothing ryt now
303.What song(s) do you think describe your personality best?
- ermmm , u aLways have these questions i cannot easiLy answer !
304.If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) would you use?
- idc
305.If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used?
- err
306.What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to?
- aLL the movies i Love seems to be Lved by others too
307.Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original?
- u mean reaLity ? nah reaLity's worse
308.Who’s your favorite Star Wars character?
- i was never interested in star wars
309.What kind of movie do you think there should be more of?
- u taLkin' 'bout category ? weLL , i love romance comedy ..
310.What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of?
- hmmm ..
311.When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness?
- taste .. -.-
312.What’s your favorite kind of cheese?
- idc much of wat kind .. as Long as it's melted .. oooh yurmm !
313.What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality?
- u think ..
314.If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food,hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it?
- if it's cLean , yeah ..
315.Do you ever feel guilty eating meat?
- no . i Lurve meat !!
FRIENDS
316.What a unique category, don’t you think?
- not usuaL , but so unique ..
317.Are you sure you have friends?
- at Least , yeah ..
318.Best friend?
- tharong panget (aLso my bf) .. w8 , uve asked his b4 !
319.Second-best friend?
- hmmm ..
320.Email the most?
- i don't do emaiLs a Lot
321.Call the most?
- taleng
322.IM the most?
- hmm ..
323.Best friend of the opposite sex?
- tharong panget i said !
324.Best offline friend?
- hhhhhhh ...
325.Best online friend?
- weLL , there are some ..
326.Which friend do you dislike the most?
- my p2 friends ! idL wat they did !
327.Person you can always confide in?
- tinay , jec , taLeng
328.Person that you can talk to for 12 hours straight and never get bored?
- hmmm , ive never done that
329.In a fight or annoyed?
- not reaLLy a fight . thigs are just messed up 4 me ryt now ..
330.Friend’s house you sleep at the most?
- nah , hey go here instead
331.Friend’s house you wish you could sleep at but can’t?
- hmmm ..
332.Who is the first number on your speed dial?
- it's not activated
333.Who would you take away on a week vacation?
- famiLy
334.Craziest?
- tax
335.Weirdest?
- khaye. haha
336.Most fun?
- most of 'em
337.Saddest?
- hmmm ..
338.Quietest?
- or u meant most quiet ?
339.Who knows you the best?
- tharong panget
340.Who do you know the best?
- tharong panget too !
341.Who do you like to shop with?
- tinay
342.Talk with?
- aLL of 'em
343.Trust the most?
- myseLf .. LoL
344.Flirt with?
- tharong panget ! LoL
345.Laugh with?
- aLL of 'em
346.Give advice to?
- bonits .. hu aLways asks for ..
347.Who gives you advice?
- most of 'em
348.Best singer?
- jec
349.Best athlete?
- hmmm ..
350.Who is the nicest?
- tinay
351.Who is the meanest?
- donna ! haha !
352.Best dancer?
- taLeng
353.Best writer?
- hmm ..
354.Best smile?
- hmm ..
355.Most creative?
- jec
356.Best dressed?
- hmm ..
357.Best shoes?
- hmm ..
358.Who doesn’t care if they lie?
- i am ! LoL.
359.Who can’t lie?
- tax ! can't even make simpLe excuse to his dad !
360.Most innocent?
- taLeng??
361.Most innocent looking?
- tinay . haha !
362.Rebel?
- i am , among us .. i think
363.Moodiest?
- joanne
364.Happiest?
- aLex !
365.Cutest?
- i am ! LoL
DO/ARE/WHO'S?
366. It’s because I’m bored, can’t you figure that out?
- wtf
367.Religious?
- not reaLLy
368.Try to be fashionable?
- yes
369.Think fashion is important?
- yes
370.Get along with your family?
- umm , yeah
371.Get along with your friends?
- yes
372.Get grounded?
- not so much
373.Know any foreign languages?
- just engLish
374.Run into walls/doors?
- i wish
375.Blonde?
- no
376.Who do you talk to most online?
- hmm ..
377.Who do you talk to most on the phone?
- tharong opanget
378.Are you a bum?
- hmm , sumtyms
379.Do you get online a lot?
- yes
380.Do you shower?
- of course
381.Do you hate school?
- yes !
382.Do you have a social life?
- i was stuck here at home for weeks .. so , do i ?
383.Do you trust people easily?
- no
384.Have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?
- hmm , yeah
385.Are you a dare devil?
- meaning ?
386.Would you ever sky dive?
- no way
387.Do you like to dance?
- no
388.Are you funny?
- idts
389.Are you a serious person?
- sLight
390.Do you make friends easily?
- no .. idk
391.Do you work out?
- no
392.Do you like to work out?
- no
393.How much can you bench press?
- i don't
394.How much can you lift?
- i can't
395.Are you a popular person?
- idts
396.Do you have plans for your future?
- of course
397.Do you plan to go to college?
- i am in coLLege ryt now
398.Do you play sports?
- no
399.Do you like sports?
- no
400.Do you play an instrument?
- i wish
401.Know what you want to be when you get older?
- yes
402.Ever been out of state?
- no
403.Out of the country?
- not yet
404.Do you like to travel?
- not reaLLy
405.What do YOU think of the way you look?
- yes
406.What do YOU think about your attitude?
- not cooL
407.What do you think about life after death?
- im cLueLess !!
408.What do you think about karma?
- i beLive in it. peopLe deserves it.
409.What do you think about love?
- corny en baduy . but LoL. Larb it !!
410.What do you think about fate?
- idk but .. we're d ones making it ..
411.What do you think about yourself?
- crazy
412.What do you tell yourself if times get hard?
- i'm a mess
413.What would you give your life for?
- idk
414.What do you think about your first love?
- it died ages ago. thank god !
415.What do you think about the first person that loved you?
- that'd be my parents! Love 'em too!
416.What are you scared of?
- death
417.Do you cry easily?
- not aLL the time
418.Who/What is something/someone that has touched you?
- hmm ..
419.What was the saddest moment of your life?
- many to mention but .. one of it is when my mama marceLa died T.T
420.What would life be without friends?
- boring
421.Without family?
- id rather not exist
422.Without you?
- miserabLe! LoL.
423.Are you deep?
- sumtyms not
424.Do you think love is once in a lifetime, or just chance?
- a chance maybe . but nah, idk
425.Do you like your town?
- yes
426.Do you wanna get out of your town?
- sure
427.What design/logo is on your mouse pad?
- nokia
428.What color is your mouse pad?
- green
429.Drink a lot of water?
- not a Lolt, but im trying tol
430.Have a cell phone/beeper/etc.?
- yes
431.Do you like amusement parks?
- not bad
432.Have you ever been to 6 Flags?
- wat's wit that ?
433.What namebrand do you wear the most?
- bny
434.Do you like taking pictures?
- yes
435.Do you like getting your picture taken?
- sure
436.Do you have a tan?
- nah
437.Do you get annoyed easily?
- yes
438.What are you hobbies?
- net surfing, singing&dancig in private! writing, sLeeping, cooking, eating ..
439.Do you have your own phone/phone line?
- yes
440.Do you have any posters/pinups on your bedroom walls?
- nah
441.Are you sick of this survey yet?
- kinda' ...........
442.Do you get good grades in school?
- not now .. T.T
443.How do you vent your anger?
- weLL, i sumtyms Love being mad
444.Are you a role model?
- not reaLLy
445.Who do you look up to?
- parents
446.Who do you trust the most?
- parents
447.Do you have any piercings?
- yes
448.Do you have any tattoos?
- nah
449.Do you dream a lot?
- yes
450.Do you daydream a lot?
- yes, a reaL Lot
451.Have you had a nightmare lately?
- yes en it's errrr ..
452.Do you have any allergies?
- nah
453.Do you have any health problems?
- nah . maybe soon
454.Do you like animals?
- no no!
455.Do you have any pets?
- but at Least yeah ..
456.Do you like siblings?
- err ..
457.Do you have glasses/contacts?
- i don't need them
458.Do you have braces?
- nah
459.Do you have a job?
- im stiLL studying !
460.Have you ever been fired from a job?
- wtf
461.Who did YOU want to be President?
- myseLf !! LoL
462.Who would you vote for, if anyone, and why?
- i wudn't mind . i hate poLiticians
463.Do you have a curfew?
- nah
464.Are you a vegetarian?
- i don't eat veggies
465.Could you be a vegetarian?
- never!!
466.Have you ever thought about suicide? .
- nah .. yes im crazy .. but not as crazy as that
467.Do you like coffee?
- not bad
468.Do you have a sweet tooth?
- not so sweet
469.Do you like horror movies?
- not much
470.Do you like to spend or save your money?
- save untiL i spend
471.Do you keep your room clean?
- im busy.. LoL
472.Do yours well?
- wat ??
473.Do you eat vegetables?
- i just said
474.Are you a flirt?
- maybe .. LoL
475.Are you good at flirting?
- idk
476.Do you like to go to parties?
- sure
477.Do you still go trick or treating?
- nah
478.Are you an angel or a little devil?
- a LittLe deviL
479.Do you get along with people?
- maybe not
480.Have you ever just started dancing/singing in the middle of somewhere?
- back in h.s ..
481.Have you ever won anything?
- at Least yeah ..
482.Do you have a waterbed or a regular bed?
- reguLar
483.What size?
- good for 2
484.Do you get bored easily?
- yes
485.Do you play golf?
- nah
486.Do you play miniature golf?
- nah
487.Do you like tennis?
- nah
488.Are you flexible?
- hmmm .. not everytime
489.Are you a sweet heart?
- idk
490.Would you like to be cloned?
- no way !!
491.What are your opinions on cloning?
- not cooL
493.Scaramouche,scaramouche, will you do the fandango?
- mama mia, mama mia, mama mia Let me go .. magnifico !!
494.Did you like this survey?
- not much. some questions are annoying
495.Are you sorry you began filling it out?
- no .. a time kiLLer
496.What questions do you wish it had asked?
- guess wat ?
497.How would you have answered them?
- guess how ??
THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
498.When was the last time you let the people you love/people who are important to you know you love them/that they are important to you?
- i dont reaLLy rmember ..
499.What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know?
- id reaLLy c .. i wud teLL them if they wanna know sumthing ..
500.What time is it?
- 7:21 - oct 18 .. LoL, it's been a month ..
Monday, September 22, 2008
MS. AMBITIOUS
(reposted from my fs profile)
(reposted from my fs profile)
♥ i wiLL be a popuLar f.d ♥
♥ i wiLL be a cosmetoLogist ♥
♥ i wiLL be a singer ♥
♥ i wiLL own a recordng company ♥
♥ i wiLL be a showbiz manager ♥
♥ i wiLL derect my own fiLm ♥
♥ i wiLL be a noveList ♥
♥ i wiLL be a famous poet ♥
♥ i wiLL be a journaList ♥
♥ i wiLL be a coLumnist ♥
♥ i wiLL be a professionaL photographer ♥
♥ i wiLL be an editor-in-chief ♥
♥ i wiLL be a disc jockey ♥
♥ i wiLL be a traveLer ♥
♥ i wiLL be a cuLinary expert ♥
♥ i wiLL be a scuLptor ♥
♥ i wiLL be a gracefuLL dancer ♥
♥ i wiLL be a business tycoon ♥
♥ i wiLL be a psychoLogist ♥
♥ i want to be a math wizzard ♥
♥ i want to be taLL (about 5'6 is enough) ♥
♥ i want to be a japanese ♥
♥ and have eyes Like theirs ♥
♥ i wiLL be a painter ♥
♥ i wiLL be a kung fu hustler ♥
♥ i wiLL be a dream interpreter ♥
♥ i wiLL be an assassin against the bad guys!! ♥
yeah ..
i'm extremeLy ambitious as heLL ...
but seriousLy ...come on .. i can't be aLL of those at the same time ! LoL !
to become a Lawyer ?
naaaah .. not reaLLy .. but it was my first ever ambition .
that's when i was very LittLe .
weLL , if you know me now , you may never think i had ever thought of
that ! LoL ! but i reaLLy thought it was the cooLest thing to be before .
to become an interior designer .
oh , yes . i was in eLementary , around grade 4 to 6 when i
found out that arts and design is a Lot cooLer for me to be interested with .
why interior designing ? we had this coLLection of "better homes and gardens"
magazine in our house , and it inspired me a Lot .
so i started making my own pLans in my drawing pad .
i thought my designs were the best . haha !
but now i just Laugh
at it .
to become a fashion designer .
when i entered highschool , i became so concious about the cLothes i wear
and since i have some skiLLs in drawing (humbLy speaking) , i started
putting the cLothes i imagine to wear in my drawing pad .
i think i'm doing a LittLe good on that (humbLy speaking again) .
oh , i Love it . imagining myseLf on my own dress shop . aahhhh , it just
feeLs good , good , good !
but .. but , but .. my skiLL in sewing isn't enough .. *sigh*
but yeah ! of course i couLd aLways enter a schooL for fashion ..
oh , why not .. i'm stiLL Looking forward to that , though ........
... i'm currentLy enroLLed as a marketing management student right now .
the simpLe story ? i happened to enter coLLege , not so prepared .
i had some issues before (a LittLe personaL) . so i ran out of time
to Look for a good fashion designing schooL and switched to my current course .
why marketing ?
i actuaLLy took management before . but i found marketing a lot more
interesting Later on , so i shifted . yeah , yeah .. but Later on again ,
i discovered that advertising is the reaL thing i'm interested with in marketing .
it's stiLL part of marketing though .
to be a cuLinary expert .
ah , food . yum , yum , yum ! i have a "not so normaL" appetite in
eating . i eat a Lot , yes , a Lot ! ah-huh , i know you couLdn't imagine it
with my "payatoooot" figure . LoL ! but so true ! so of course i know to
myseLf , i shouLd cook ! and i do , and Love it too .
about the taste ? not so bad i think
do you ? hmmm ..
so what now ? umm , maybe after i finish my marketing course ,i could enroLL again . i can either be a fashion designing student , or ,
a cuLinary sudent .
i'm stiLL thinking it over by now . but whichever way i choose , i'd be
happy being one of those two for sure .
about those other stuffs Listed above ? they're just aLternatives .some things i think that are cooL to do too (obviousLy my interests) .
Sunday, September 21, 2008
MY MAMA MARCELLA
it was the picture I took the day my Mama Marcella died. I was really sad. I am. So what was that picture for? I was hoping maybe just in pctures, at least she'd show up. I never mind if I am afraid of ghosts or what. What I was thinking is, to whatever way it is, I want to see my mama looking back at me again.
Mama Marcella's my mom's mother. My childhood memories was so spoiled by her. She's amazing and she's my favorite. She've given me everything I wanted. And everytime I get problems from my parents, Mama's the number one person on the line for help.
But I've been really stupid on the last days of her life. I was a coward not to go to her before she left. We had problems, and so my anger ate me. I had all the chances to say sorry but I chose to miss it. I hate myself for that, and I'm too late. It really hurts, but it's after all my fault. She is my first ever loved one who left. And I never wish for someone to come after her again.
IDK..
I've been on a commitment for 2 years and 5 months already. We're both serious about it. And him? He has his own stupidities just like everyone's, but ahhh, I gotta' tell you, he has the traits a girl could ever want for a man (but not perfectly all of it).
So what's the "idk" thing here? Hmm.. I think I'm not feeling the magic i felt as before. So I don't know. Have I fallen out of love? No, it's not that, i guess (ughh, I'm dead when he reads this) . But things just seems so different and I know he's feeling it. He's asking me what's wrong, but I can't come up for an answer coz I don't even know for myself what's wrong. I do miss him sometimes. But I'm realizing things. Maybe I can go on with out him, or what's it like when he's gone? - which is not healthy for a relationship to think of, i know. But I don't really want him to go. It's just that i'm finding and knowing myself more when he's not around. I'm not enjoying being alone, but I think i want some more time being alone. And, we've only been seeing each other regularly once a month. But I'm not changing. I thought a month we're apart will be helpful for my thinking. Should I tell him I need space? But that was a space aLready. He loves me, I'm sure of that. I'm unfair right?
It's crazy isn't it? I'm crazy. Am I keeping him hanging? Something's wrong with me, but that isn't the problem. I can't figure out what's wrong here. That's what it is i guess.
So what's the "idk" thing here? Hmm.. I think I'm not feeling the magic i felt as before. So I don't know. Have I fallen out of love? No, it's not that, i guess (ughh, I'm dead when he reads this) . But things just seems so different and I know he's feeling it. He's asking me what's wrong, but I can't come up for an answer coz I don't even know for myself what's wrong. I do miss him sometimes. But I'm realizing things. Maybe I can go on with out him, or what's it like when he's gone? - which is not healthy for a relationship to think of, i know. But I don't really want him to go. It's just that i'm finding and knowing myself more when he's not around. I'm not enjoying being alone, but I think i want some more time being alone. And, we've only been seeing each other regularly once a month. But I'm not changing. I thought a month we're apart will be helpful for my thinking. Should I tell him I need space? But that was a space aLready. He loves me, I'm sure of that. I'm unfair right?
It's crazy isn't it? I'm crazy. Am I keeping him hanging? Something's wrong with me, but that isn't the problem. I can't figure out what's wrong here. That's what it is i guess.
Friday, September 19, 2008
GIRLS INLOVE
i've been visiting different friendster profiLes out of boredom . oh , the girLs are inLove . there are Lot's of 'em .here's what i usuaLLy read on their about me's :
♥ i wiLL Love him for the rest of my Life
♥ i wiLL die with out my baby
♥ baby , you are my everything
etc .....
and pictures of their men ! you wouLdn't even recognize easiLy the reaL owner of the account , whether it was him or her . but it's her's ! everything she's about is him .so , so , so .. i can't heLp but have these thoughts . so what ? they are mine ! not needed ? the heLL i care . i would say what's on my mind .
here's what i had in mind reading those stuffs ...
" cut the crap bitches ! Live for your Lives ! "
and ..
" Live in your worLd , not on theirs !"
it's a "KISS ASS" thing , ughh , irritating . but no , i don't hate them , reaLLy . i'm just wondering . they're reaLLy getting on with their Lives daiLy onLy for a boy ? i mean , heLLo ?? what about the other things , the other peopLe they shouLd be giving importance more ? Like friends , famiLy .. weLL , not bad if it's baLanced . but it's a "profiLe!" a friendster profiLe , which was made for the account owner's identity , not for others . they can't even make sure it's him for the rest of their Lives aLready .
no , i'm not being bitter . i even have my "him" aLready . but heLL no , i stiLL Live for my Life and Live in my own damn worLd and not kissing his ass . no , no ..but , ahhh , it's just what i think .. i don't reaLLy have to care ...
♥ i wiLL Love him for the rest of my Life
♥ i wiLL die with out my baby
♥ baby , you are my everything
etc .....
and pictures of their men ! you wouLdn't even recognize easiLy the reaL owner of the account , whether it was him or her . but it's her's ! everything she's about is him .so , so , so .. i can't heLp but have these thoughts . so what ? they are mine ! not needed ? the heLL i care . i would say what's on my mind .
here's what i had in mind reading those stuffs ...
" cut the crap bitches ! Live for your Lives ! "
and ..
" Live in your worLd , not on theirs !"
it's a "KISS ASS" thing , ughh , irritating . but no , i don't hate them , reaLLy . i'm just wondering . they're reaLLy getting on with their Lives daiLy onLy for a boy ? i mean , heLLo ?? what about the other things , the other peopLe they shouLd be giving importance more ? Like friends , famiLy .. weLL , not bad if it's baLanced . but it's a "profiLe!" a friendster profiLe , which was made for the account owner's identity , not for others . they can't even make sure it's him for the rest of their Lives aLready .
no , i'm not being bitter . i even have my "him" aLready . but heLL no , i stiLL Live for my Life and Live in my own damn worLd and not kissing his ass . no , no ..but , ahhh , it's just what i think .. i don't reaLLy have to care ...
WINDSTRUCK : THERE'S NO WAY I CAN GET OVER ...
WINDSTRUCK starring JEON JI HYUN & JANG HYUK
THE MOVIEa 2004 South Korean fantasy-romantic comedy directed by Kwak Jae-yong. The film was a major success, ranking as the 8th-highest grossing Korean film of 2004.
THE CHARACTERSat first, i Laughed reaLLy hard . kyung-jin (jeon ji hyun) & myung-woo (jang hyuk) were reaLLy funny together .
kyung-jin's personaLity is somewhat the kind i admire for a woman . she hits peopLe whenever she wanted to ! (LoL!). no , serious . i admire her determination for her job and as a person . it's as if she never fears anyone . but of course , stiLL has her weakness inside just Like everyone eLse .
and myung-woo . a very discipLined man . i thought his personaLity's boring . but after aLL , he turned out to be a fun person in a way .
MY THOUGHTSit's been aLomost a year i guess , since i watched this movie . and yet , everything is stiLL fresh .
some might think i am over reacting . but seriousLy , i reaLLy feLt the scenes from this movie . creators of windstruck are totaLLy genius i wouLd say ! i adore them for that .
i've heard about this even before i watched it . i was ignoring it , and i regret for that .
i Love watching movies . dramas , romance , etc .. but i never Let my seLf cry no matter how sad a movie is . and peopLe here in the house wouLd tease me if i do !
yes i Laughed reaL hard here on this movie . but buLLsh*t ! no one toLd me it's as sad as that , more than i couLd ever thought !
THE CRYING TIMEwhen myung-woo aLmost died from the river , i was like hoLding my breath to stop the tears from faLLing . gLadLy i didn't . hewww , that was cLose !
i was so happy at that part knowing myung-woo wiLL not die from drowning by the river . it's Like the "jumping jumping" hapiness (LoL!). there's no way he shouLd die ! they're so great together !
BUT I KNEW SOMETHING'S REALLY GONNA HAPPEN ! stupid kyung-jin ! she shouLdn't have chased that freakin' bastard criminaL knowing she's about to meet myung-woo ! and stupid myung-woo ! he shouLdn't have gotten himseLf invoLved on kyung-jin's case !
errr , i hate the part at the hospitaL . that's when i started feeLing my eyes were about to expLode from tears . and so he died . i was Like "okay , okay , i'LL Let it out . here i go."
i wouLd turn reaLLy crazy if i was in kyung jin's place . aLL she knew at that time is she's the one who accidentaLLy shot myung-woo (though she reaLLy is not) that caused him death . knowing your Loved one died because of your own mistake , what eLse couLd be crazier and sadder than that ?
i was crying , i mean , "CRYING". i didn't mind peopLe around teasing me anymore . i am badLy touched by myung-woo's death , so i didn't care . i was sniffing from time to time . i can't even taLk normaL .
i continued myself from crying to every singLe part of the movie after that . it hurts , i promise ! it's as if i was the one in the situation , and everytime kyung-jin's about to commit suicide , my heart beats as fast as it couLd .
to aLL kyung-jin's suicide attempts , i understood that there's no way she'LL succeed . just the time when there's no hoLding back from jumping off the roof top , i bursted more out in tears . a huge hand-shaped baLLoon caught her ! it was the wind ! she was saved by the wind ! kyung-jin was saved by myung-woo !
(Myung-woo: "If I die, I want to become the wind again")
another sad part , when kyung-jin's chasing again the criminaL she's been chasing the time when myung-woo died , aLL their memories came fLashing back , from the things they did and said . it's sad reaLizing those are nothing now but memories . ughhh , my tears were fLooding the house .
and , when myung-woo came to her as a ghost before heading to the afterLife , to make her reaLize she shouldn't die , and wiLL soon meet someone that has the same souL as him , gosh myung-woo that was reaLLy the fareweLL thing . i cried so hard on that part , especiaLL when kyung-jin said "If you miss me, come back anytime. Even as the wind, come back as the wind." that was so desperate of her that i feLt how painfuL it is was . ughhhh ...
MY REALIZATIONSi think this movie focused more on how kyung-jin endured pain from myung-woo's death .
♥ so when one of my very Loved ones die (knock on wood!) i wouLd wish not to die but instead , wish to take aLL my memories away and never have them back so i won't have to endure the pain .
kyung-jin & myung-woo were so okay before the tragedy . who wouLd thought of that coming ?
♥ peopLe are siLLy procLaiming they have the hardest time in Love when onLy the matter is their Loved ones Left , not coming back , but aLive though . and that they're Loved ones are happy on other's arm . i thought of that too when i was once broken . bu shut up ! your Love being away but knowing he/she's happy , or your Love being dead , wiLL never ever again be abLe to be seen breathing , smiLing . SO WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE ?
and the major thing i reaLized .
what i fear for in Life to come is DEATH . i wouLd never say my Life is a mess no matter how hard i couLd feeL . there are peopLe dying , many of 'em , wishing to have the Life we have , the time we have to spend for days ahead that they can never have . we're way too Lucky . i appreciated the purpose of one's life more .
IT'S ALL MY THANKS TO WINDSTRUCK !Thursday, September 18, 2008
SCHOOL , SCHOOL , SCHOOL !
ughhh .. i've been so Lazy these days . it's Like i just want to be stuck at home with this computer aLL day for the rest of my Life ! i'm crazy ! i've been committing too many absences from schooL ! i'm gonna be dead when mom and dad finds out i'm not doing weLL there .
schooL was never fun . it's sick .. or maybe i'm the one sick .. maybe ? no , exactLy i am sick ! i thought i was ambitious enough to pursue on my studies . now, i'm nothing but a useLess freak ! but just why i'm not Loving schooL now ? do i Love what i do there ? heLL no ! and it's aLL my fauLt ! i shouLd've thought better before i took my course .. thesis , reports ! buLLshit ! what's fun with that ?! and i'm writing it aLL down here coz i can't share it directLy to any other's face coz i don't expect anyone to understand . even i myseLf don't understand !
i keep teLLing myseLf to just go on , time wiLL pass . patience . and i'LL be soon getting over it . ughhh , my mind's gonna expLode ! i've been having sLeepLess nights thinking of these ! i've been counting days , but stiLL it's too Long . i'm dying !
but i know i'LL do weLL onLy if i Love what i'm doing .. shouLd i teLL my parents i'm shifting from my course ? nah'ah .. they'LL kiLL me . they've spent too much aLready . i am hopeLess .
and now i have to go . a cLassmate caLLed , for the thesis again .. oh anyone there , kiLL me !!!!
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